you don't know...

You don't know how I look when I wake up in the morning.
You don't know how I look when I brush my teeth.
You don't know how I look when I'm cold.
You don't know how I look when I'm tired.
You don't know how I look after a long day at work.
You don't know how I look in my work uniform.
You don't know how I look when I'm in a rush.
You don't know how I look when I'm driving a car.
You don't know how I look after I get a bad phone call.
You don't know how I feel after a break-up.
You don't know how I feel after I stop being friends with someone.
You don't know how I feel on my birthday.
You don't know how I feel on Christmas morning.
You don't know how I dress for school.
You don't know how I am doing in school.
You don't know how stressed I get about finals.
You don't know how I get extreme anxiety when I take the train.
You don't know how I write a paper.

You don't know because you don't care to know. 
You don't ask about me. It's like I'm non-existent. 
You don't know how I feel after all the damage you've caused me. 
how I've contemplated suicide because I can't take anymore damage.
But that would only be the easy way out. And nothing in life is ever easy right? 
I have realized that I do have people that care about me and that would be selfish of me. 

you were never there when I needed you, it was like I was invisible. You were against me.

(something from 2011)
-scee